Older updates

I spent the past few day's spare time to post some old things yanked from FB updates, journal entries, whatever, and listing them on this blog. I've posted a few kimono photos, some various private collection items, and some various kimono details. "Content-building," essentially. 

At the moment, I still don't quite see the point to going back to this older project that I had mostly abandoned some years ago. It's almost like losing a part of my personality to just... drop something so important to me, though. So many people and things I cared about during the 2013-2016 ish span of years died. Most quite literally. And I just didn't care enough to. I don't know if care is the word. I just. Can't. I don't have anything in me to bother with. 

I don't have the long-term interest in anything to really capture me anymore. I'm exhausted all the time. I'm getting sicker. It isn't the depression, turns out, it's autoimmune. So that's cool. 

But "going back" doesn't seem to be anything I care about. 

And yet, filling in a gap and going back to make something 'coherent' is a compulsion, so I need to 'fix' the timeline as good as possible and THEN assess whether going forward is worth it. Whether the problem is the broken timeline, or if it's that I just... don't have future interest in updates. Or what those updates are. What direction this would go in. I really have no idea.